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firkckijngng.
Uhrggh.
Anxiety just makes me want to stab myself in the head.
I hate it so much. and I'm a logical person, I shouldn't be so fircking afraid all the time over stupid things.
Ughh. My aunt had allegedly travelled to Atlanta Georgia, where there were patients being treated for the disease that I am afraid to say the name of... 
But I heard that that's where she went, but apparently she went to Michigan too. We live in the south. Michigan is near Canada. How else would she get there aside from plane travel? 
DO YOU KNOW HOW FIRCKING TERRIFYING PLANES AND AIRPORTS ARE? MILLIONS OF PEOPLE GO THERE EVERY DAY. HOW UNSANITARY. HHGHGHH.
And our aunt came to our house today. And I'm just so terrified that she contracted the deadly disease, even though it is impossible to spread the disease during its incubation period, when no symptoms are shown. It takes 21 days for the symptoms to start, and during those 21 days, the disease cannot be spread. So it is impossible for my aunt to have gotten anyone sick at this point if she contracted the disease, although it is highly improbable for her to have gotten sick. She's probably just fine and in perfect health. I don't think she's sick. I just can't help worrying so much. And the doctor in New York who apparently has it is now quarantined, but he had come straight from West Africa. Many people argue that travellers should be quarantined during the incubation period of the disease to be sure that they are disease free, although others argue that it is uneccessary due to the fact that it cannot be spread during those 21 days. But think of this- if they travel from Africa and are in America for 22 days, and their symptoms start- who is coming into contact with that person until the CDC arrives? Is it not safer to just contain them until their health has been determined safe? Doesn't that just make more sense? It's not really unethical or unfair to detain someone for 21 days if they might cause an epidemic. I don't think that anyone understands my anxiety at all. I'm not saying that my anxiety is logical, because I know it isn't, I just can't help but question probablity. It's just, "Oh, who cares? It PROBABLY won't end up in our location, and it PROBABLY won't happen." The word "probably" means absolutely nothing to me. I am the type of person who needs a 100% guarantee. I hate not knowing things! It leaves room for questions! So unless someone can prove to me that nothing can happen, I am completely unsatisfied with rationalizing my anxiety! I wish I could just stop worrying about it and accept the facts! 
And no matter how many facts I give myself, I just can't stop being stupid and anxious. 
And we don't have anymore soap left..
Because I'm an idiot and I wash my hands in steaming hot water until they're red and numb, and I use a crap ton of soap. It's bad for me and I think I'm destroying my hands. No one wants me to wash my hands.
I can't say I blame them, but I really wish I could destroy the nerves in my hands wash my hands right now. It makes me less anxious. 

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:iconxlonalovex:
xLonaLovex Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist
Thanks for the watch <3
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North-Star2 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2014  New member Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch^^
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MeowTownPolice Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014  Student General Artist
DO NOT SEND THIS BACK TO T HE PERSON THAT SENT YOU IT!!! [not a good idea]






DO THIS ITS SOO FREAKY

















here just do it


most people aren't sure of what they really want in life.

I received
this letter from a friend on the computer, did what it told me to, and
within a week, everything I had wished came true!! Here's an exact
copy,

this

really

works!!!!



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1.

To yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3 times!


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2.

Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and
say it to your self 6 times!!


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3.

If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!!


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4.

Think of something that you want to happen between you and that
1special person and say it to your self 12 times!!!


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5.

Now, heres the hard part! Pick only 1 of these wishes and as you
scroll down focus and concentrate on it and think on nothing else but
that wish.













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Now make one last & final wish about that one wish that you picked.









After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and
what you wished for will come true within in one week!







u only get one chance!!!!! Now scroll down and think of your
crush!!!



























































Keep going

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!











Did you think of your crush? I hope so, that was your last chance.

Now
pay very close attention this important message!



Sorry but once read, must be sent.

Yes, this is one of those kinda
chain letters that everyone hates.

This one has been going since 1864
and if you break this chain, you will pay!!!!!! Remember that
after hearing these stories.




First Example:


Take Barbra Wallace .. She was a pretty lucky girl, up till she got
this same chain letter.

She had a crush on th e same kid since
kindergarden.

when she got this mail she didn't pay any attention to
it. She just thought, no big deal. And deleted it.

The next day her
dad got fired and her mom dies in a car crash.

If she would have sent
the letter none of that would have happened and her mom would be
alive.




Second Example:


Try Freddie D. Now Freddie D. was your average nerd.

Had glasses, was
short and chubby, was in gifted.

All the signs of
your total dork.

He also received this letter and sent it to 51
people in the hour.

Now, like Barbra , he had a crush on a girl since
3rd grade.

The next day after sending the chain the girl confessed her
love for him ever since 3rd grade. Freddie D.

finally had the courage
to ask
her out, and of course, she had been waiting to yes to that for years.


They grew up and
married each other to live happily forever.




Third Example:

Now if you couldn't relate to the others, this'll get ya hooked.


Listen to this.

A kid named Jordan Johnson was just getting on AOL to
check his mail.

He was a quiet kid, not that popular but not a geek
either. he was just normal. He saw he had mail from his friend.

It was
this exact letter.

Now Jordan Johnsen was a smart kid and he knew what
could happen if he didnt pass it on.

He simply pulled a few friends
from his buddy list and sent it along.

The next day, about that same
time, he got a phone call.

It said he had won the lottery!
then his dad came home and bought him a new bike! His mom bought him
Nintendo64 and play station! His grandmother sent him a new computer,
and his best friend
gave him tickets to the concert he wanted to go to, Kid Rock and Limp Bizkit!
Then he inherited a brand-new tv from his aunt! He was goin' wild! the
next day his secret crush asked him out, and they have been going out
ever since.




Now, you heard the storie*.

* *now which person i'd rather
be, but thats up to you.

I wouldn't wanna end up like Barbra but thats
only me.

We all want what we cant have but now's ur chance to go out
withthat special somebody ur waiting for. Take it or leave it.

If you
send this to-



1 person- you will lose all luck in ur love life..... forever!!!!!


10 people- your crush will say they like you as a friend...... ONLY!!!!!



15 people- your crush will say they like you



20 people- your crush will ask you out!



25 people- your crush will kiss you!!



30 people - Your crush will fall in love with you



35 people or more- All of the above!!
^^


Don't blow it, it's ur
chance to shine! Have everything u wanted, and more! Now, complaining
cus u dont have any
friends. Well theres an answer 4 everything.

It's simple, just go in a
chat room, pick some names and send away! but here's the catch.....
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Dark-Fox-Yanori Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave and the watch <3
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DARKonyxINK Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
d-;<;-b hey akuno, talk to me babe.
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